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Riddles.
Yet maybe something real.
My heatbeat's slowly fading,
And I don't know what to feel.
Mixed in with the ashes,
Is an image made with dirt.
Blood drips slowly from my wounds,
As I try to stop the hurt.
The Poison kills me slowly;
Was this all done in vain?
Chains of sorrow bind me;
Do I deserve this pain?
Spiderwebs and lies..
Much like the thoughts inside my mind.
Clusters of melancholy,
Searching for something I'll never find.
Constantly asking questions,
As the answers turn to dust..
My life is slowly fading,
As the riddles turn to rust.
A Poem For This Lonely Night.
Nothing comes to mind.
My sould cries out to creativity;
Something massive,
Something that blows my mind.
But as the words don’t come,
And the picture stays blank,
I continue to write;
In hopes for that revelation.
My heart is ripped to pieces,
As the beat of the music fades;
You can silence this night,
But the party will never stop.
My mind is full of torment,
So many voices pulling in strives;
“Go this way..no no..that way,”
It’s like the Cheshire Cat,
With his malevolent grin..
Messing with me, taunting me;
Turning my thoughts to scrambles.
And then I look up as he walks through the door,
The whole reason my heart beats;
The reason why the pieces bring themselves back together.
Love can be so deadly,
But also a rish worth taking.
It shatters and restores hope,
It causes pain and brings happiness,
It either restores or destroys.
I guess the choice is yours.
It’s what you make of it;
Like all of life.
Smile through the good,
Cry through the bad,
It doesn’t matter..
Because the choice is yours.
And YOU control your destiny.
Punch holes in the wall when you’re angry,
Throw stuff across the room;
Drink yourself into an early grave,
And vaporize your lungs to ashes.
Do drugs that psych you out,
Whatever you need to feel better.
No one has the right to judge,
That right is reserved for no one.
Stand for your rights,
Stand for your beliefs,
It’s okay to be different;
We were born to stand out.
Our constitution gives us our rights,
We don’t your bibles and scrolls;
Relics that try to control your life,
Tell you what you “need” to do.
I leave it to nature to rule my life,
And I look to the past and history to guide me.
I learn for myself from the good and the bad.
So live life to its fullest.
Each and every day.
Love with your whole heart
And just let fate have it’s way.
Don’t spend your time trying to fight,
What was meant to be,
Because we don’t know about tomorrow;
So we gotta deal with what we’ve got today.
My Demons
Lost inside a labyrinth
Deep within myself
Chained by an unforgiving beast
To pain and regrets long past
I dwell here in this land of longing
Wanting to be free of demons
Haunting me, taunting me
I want to scream, cry out for release
But redemption will not come so easy
Pardon for these crimes is fleeting
For she who cannot even begin to forgive herself
Cannot be forgiven by others.
Our Love
Crying tears of diamonds
Rivers of rhinestones run down my cheeks
Onto your shoulders, I hold you tight.
Our eyes meet for a century,
It seems like time stands still.
Just me and you together.
And then,
I falter.
How can you still be here?
Time has past...
Normally these things don’t last.
But I know because I’m in your arms,
I’ll be alright.
Life and death cannot separate
What we meant to be forever.
Do you love me?
Or is this a one way mirror
On a two way street
Pictures scattered across the floor
So afraid this won’t last
But for now, as I lie in your arms
I am willing to take this chance.
Here we are with a future unclear
Just me and you.
In this timeless present.
Support our Troops
Blood all over the ground
Soldiers gagged and bound
Fallen heroes by their side
Bodies linger far and wide.
Bombs go off every second
Soldiers scan for medics and beckon
Hopeless cries of wounded men
Nurses don’t know where to begin
So much death and so much pain
Lots of loss and not much gain
Why are we fighting this endless war
Regardless, we need to support those who are.
Welcome to JDF
Welcome to my world
A resort of sorts you don’t see
Where the doors will lock behind you
And fantasies are free
Where calenders mean nothing
As weeks turn into months
Where memories can haunt you
And rivers flow from tears
Where concrete walls surround you
Cell doors of cold hard steel
Your conscience starts to taunt you
And nightmares seem so real
A domain filled with sorrow
Where, even I, break down and cry
A place with no tomorrow
Where people live and die inside
Welcome to JDF
A warehouse of human race
Where even when someone’s set free
Another takes their place
So welcome to my world
If it’s where you want to be
A barren cell
A home in hell
I pray they set you free.
Inmates Don't Cry
The Judge entered the courtroom
The bailiff yelled, “All rise.”
I sat up tall and looked him in the eye
When he passed out his verdict I thought I would die
But I kept a straight face
Cause inmates don’t cry.
Back from the court, locked in a cell
I think of the lock-down
The torment, the hell,
CO’s walked by, they said something sly,
But I acted real tough,
Cause inmates don’t cry.
We swore to ourselves
That we’d never come back
As we approached the great dungeon
The walls seemed to rise
But I said something slick
Cause inmates don’t cry.
Now time goes by
Some good and some bad
Moments are shared
Some happy and some sad
I no longer feel bold, tough, of wise
All I’ll tell you a secret
Last night I cried.
Crushed
Blank faces
Staring into the horizon
Over the depths
Of the sea of hopelessness
Nothing compares
No ones aware
Of the deaths that happen here
As one looks at their fallen wonders
Dreams and hopes crushed in the storm
No one realizes how much pain
Always loss and never gain
Hearts shattered
Thoughts are crushed
Always beaten
From dawn to dusk.
My World
I feel the darkness closing in
My world is falling apart
The shattered pieces of my heart bind together
Only to be broken by those I call friends
Nothing is what it seems anymore
The smile on my face is a plastered shield
A defense to keep people from the truth
They don’t realize the pain I carry everyday
The don’t know what life is like outside these walls
No one can comprehend what I go through
A constant battle
Of life and death.
Distance
I pull it around me like a cloak
And watch you trough its folds
It muffles every sound and gesture
Every move I make
If you were to strike me
I would feel shallow blows
If you were to hold me
I would feel shallow comfort
My distance is my security
But its refuge is cold and numb
Deep in its depths
I cant escape.
Cold
Each breath
Forming its own cloud
Soon to become its own storm
To rain on whoever’s below it
Why is this cold so inescapable
Shadow like it spreads
Painless we become numb
To the joy of others around us.
Note: I got the idea to write this from JK Rowling's description of Dementors.
Death Trap
Don’t fall too deep
Into the death trap
There is nothing to gain
And everything to lose
You get attached
To people you don’t know
Only to get hurt
For their stupid show
You mind gets boggled
With thoughts that aren’t true
Your heart gets crushed
Just so they can snicker
Their hearts are your trap
Just like many others
Do not fall too deep
Into the death trap.
Razor Blade
Have you ever wrapped yourself around a razor blade
Where the sharpened edge packed such a pang
It sliced through your heart and right through your mind
It damaged your soul and twisted your thoughts
Have you ever felt such a pain
Where you just wanted to die
Every thought was corrupted
Everything felt so dry
Nothing could fix it
Nothing compared
To the pain you thought would always be there